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I am sick and tired of life

Greetings, readers. I have felt very strange over the last couple of months and until recently I couldn’t put my finger on exactly what was bothering me. Well, the picture is becoming a little bit clearer now that the fog has lifted, and I don’t like what I see.

My desire to write is at its highest point in two years. When I say to write, I obviously mean work other than the blog. My problem now is that I have no time or energy from working at the fast food job to do said writing. I am 52 years old and I feel like my life is a waste.

On the positive side of the job,  I am an extremely outgoing person at my cash register, and my regulars love me. I do get a lot of enjoyment and self-esteem from this work. I feel, however, that I must give serious contemplation to either quitting or, at the very least, taking a few months off.

This winter has been brutally cold and walking to and from busses to go to work has already become a hated chore.  I get up at 4:00 in the morning to check Facebook, have some coffee, and listen to music before I have to get ready to go. I blink twice, and it’s 8:10. There goes that morning. I come home from work, dreadfully tired, with feet aching, I put a little food in me, watch an episode or two of something, and usually have lights out by 9:30.

On my three days off from my fast food job, I write with Rebecca for roughly three hours, and I must also do all the chores that need to get done and I had no other time to do, such as appointments, laundry, shopping, etc. When in the hell do I have time to sit down and write? Some might say at 4:00 in the morning. Ah, no, my functioning brain is barely active at that time. In the evening? I’ve actually caught myself falling asleep during my TV shows. Again, the brain is not in creative mode. You can see why I’m depressed.

Do my therapy sessions help? Yes they do, for a short time, but then I begin to look at my life in general and I come to the conclusion that I have wasted most of it. Three quarters gone and only a quarter to go. I have three books to my name, which if you put all three together, don’t equal the pages of Darren’s novel adapted from my play. I would have to say, Dear Readers, that my biggest accomplishment has been this blog, and that is primarily thanks to the help of Rebecca’s typing and editing skills.

Now, don’t worry folks, even though this entry is full of red flags, I am a fighter and a survivor and will do whatever I need to do to get this situation under control. Tomorrow, I’ve cleared the docket to read and edit Four’s a Crowd, either in the morning or, if I have Rebecca come in, after she leaves. I always try to leave each entry on a bright note, and here it is. I ordered speech recognition software for the computer. Once it comes in and I master that, I won’t have to type anymore. That could solve many problems quickly. Cross thy fingers.

Until next time, stay warm, have a great day, have a cup of coffee or hot cocoa for me, and happy reading.

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1,101 words since Friday evening

Greetings, readers. It has been a long time since I have been in a writing groove like this. Yippee! I’ve finally come up with a project which is fairly easy for me to do and it contains characters I’m familiar with. I am trying something brand new with this project. I am keeping a daily log of how many words are written each day. Wednesday I had a big fat goose egg of zero words on the ledger. 😦 And for the first time, I can actually say it bothered me. So, even though it was late last evening, I did get 220 words completed on the script, including having to go to Google Docs and translate two lines of dialog into French. unfortunately, I could not copy and paste from Google Docs to my document. So I had to type in French, not having any of the accent marks; those will come later.

I am embarking on a television script for Star Trek: The Next Generation. Yes, I know that series has been off the air since 1995, but part two of the project will involve turning it into a novel. It will be my third attempt at writing a novel.

My major sticking point is the creation of characters. That’s no problem here. They are created for me already. The next big step will be creating characters of my own. That has been my big sticking point problem up until now. When I wrote my play, Kimberly, the story line was certainly strong enough but the four characters were as flat as pancakes. Especially Lyle, the husband. Even after four drafts, I couldn’t make him any stronger. Thanks to Darren, who’s currently turning that project into a novel; he has fleshed them out and given all four characters much more depth. I’m extremely pleased with what he has done so far.

My writing surge, if you will, is thanks to three people. First of all, Rebecca, for her constant and gentle encouragement. Second, Darren, who has lit a fire under me with the wonderful progress that he has made. And lastly is a man named Ron Jones, who helped compose and put together the Star Trek: Next Generation music on compact discs which I am using to inspire me and get me into the Next Generation zone. That has proven to be quite effective.

Before we sign off, just a quick note about the weekend plans. On Saturday evening is D&D gaming night with Darren and Rebecca. 🙂 Since it is the evening session, that will leave me several hours to continue my work on this new project. Gaming night relies on the weather being good. So far the snow storm predicted for the weekend is apparently going to track south of us. Today is sunny but still dang cold. Spring, please get here soon.

Until next Wednesday, have a great weekend, stay warm, and happy reading.

I can’t seem to get into that writing zone

Greetings, readers. Back 15 or 20 years ago, when I was trying my very best to type my own writing, I was able to get into what I call my zone. I could see everything I was writing as though it was a movie. It didn’t matter whether I was writing a short story, trying my hand at a novel, or a play, things just seemed to flow better back then.

Jump forward a few years. My health declined, and I can no longer type or write longhand as easily as I need to. Two years or so ago I hired writing assistant Rebecca and I wouldn’t trade her for the world. She has been invaluable. The only drawback that I am finding is that sometimes I don’t feel like I’m in that zone. I can’t dive into my project for one reason or another.

What to do, what to do? I’ve often thought about writing in the middle of the night. Heck, I’m an insomniac half the time anyway. Rebecca can always edit when she gets to the office. So far out of the one hundred plus blog entries, I have done exactly five by myself. Am I dependent upon Rebecca? I don’t think so, however, I do tend to wait until Rebecca gets here to work. Perhaps I have fallen into a comfy zone.

As far as my typing skills go, my favorite key is the backspace key. That brings a chuckle down at the diner. When my musical performance is over in mid-December, I am going to – not re-evaluate my writing situation – but restructure it. Rebecca and I will still type the blogs and I will still dictate new material to her. I will also get more hands on with my career. With two books published, and new stuff on the burners, it’s time to pop this career into the next gear.

Until very soon, have a great day, take care, and happy reading.

P.S. Look for a blog entry from me this weekend and one from Rebecca next week.