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I am sick and tired of life

Greetings, readers. I have felt very strange over the last couple of months and until recently I couldn’t put my finger on exactly what was bothering me. Well, the picture is becoming a little bit clearer now that the fog has lifted, and I don’t like what I see.

My desire to write is at its highest point in two years. When I say to write, I obviously mean work other than the blog. My problem now is that I have no time or energy from working at the fast food job to do said writing. I am 52 years old and I feel like my life is a waste.

On the positive side of the job,  I am an extremely outgoing person at my cash register, and my regulars love me. I do get a lot of enjoyment and self-esteem from this work. I feel, however, that I must give serious contemplation to either quitting or, at the very least, taking a few months off.

This winter has been brutally cold and walking to and from busses to go to work has already become a hated chore.  I get up at 4:00 in the morning to check Facebook, have some coffee, and listen to music before I have to get ready to go. I blink twice, and it’s 8:10. There goes that morning. I come home from work, dreadfully tired, with feet aching, I put a little food in me, watch an episode or two of something, and usually have lights out by 9:30.

On my three days off from my fast food job, I write with Rebecca for roughly three hours, and I must also do all the chores that need to get done and I had no other time to do, such as appointments, laundry, shopping, etc. When in the hell do I have time to sit down and write? Some might say at 4:00 in the morning. Ah, no, my functioning brain is barely active at that time. In the evening? I’ve actually caught myself falling asleep during my TV shows. Again, the brain is not in creative mode. You can see why I’m depressed.

Do my therapy sessions help? Yes they do, for a short time, but then I begin to look at my life in general and I come to the conclusion that I have wasted most of it. Three quarters gone and only a quarter to go. I have three books to my name, which if you put all three together, don’t equal the pages of Darren’s novel adapted from my play. I would have to say, Dear Readers, that my biggest accomplishment has been this blog, and that is primarily thanks to the help of Rebecca’s typing and editing skills.

Now, don’t worry folks, even though this entry is full of red flags, I am a fighter and a survivor and will do whatever I need to do to get this situation under control. Tomorrow, I’ve cleared the docket to read and edit Four’s a Crowd, either in the morning or, if I have Rebecca come in, after she leaves. I always try to leave each entry on a bright note, and here it is. I ordered speech recognition software for the computer. Once it comes in and I master that, I won’t have to type anymore. That could solve many problems quickly. Cross thy fingers.

Until next time, stay warm, have a great day, have a cup of coffee or hot cocoa for me, and happy reading.

From Rebecca: Blog notice about Friday

Greetings, Joe’s readers. A quick note about tomorrow, Friday August 5th. I will be doing the blog entry from home – yay internet at home! – but it will be later than the usual time in the afternoon.

So, until tomorrow, take care and happy reading.

Time seems to fly when you’re having fun

Greetings, readers. When I was a small boy in elementary school, school days felt like weeks and the weekend felt like ten minutes. I’ve often wondered why that was. A minute is a minute and a day is a day, etc. I suppose it’s how our brain perceives time.

I’ve had it happen many times over my lifetime that when I’m doing something fun, time flies. When I’m studying, doing something boring, or doing something I flat-out don’t like, time seems to drag.

This morning I got up at 6:45 and thought to myself, “I have the whole morning ahead of me.” I checked Facebook, practiced for my show a little bit, and ran a train simulation. Next thing I knew, it was 11:30. I had to shut down the computer and get ready to go meet Rebecca at Panera.

I can’t change how I perceive the time or how it goes. I know when I go to Bear Spring Camps, the first few days seem normal, but the closer I get to the day I leave, the time just seems to speed up. Back in the day, when camp used to have the benefit softball game, I really got the sensation that the finish of the game was the beginning of the end of the vacation. The game happened on a Thursday, Friday was mostly packing up, and Saturday morning was saying good-bye, having that final breakfast and getting on the road.

During my college years, when I really struggled with my classes, I felt like time was traveling through molasses. Then came the weekend. Penn State football on Saturday, rah rah rah. On Sunday, I’d watch the Steelers and Eagles. And then it was back to classes on Monday and time would drag again.

In conclusion, there is probably some theory from some scientist that deals with this topic, but I can only speak from my own experiences. If you would like to, please chime in with your experiences on how you perceive time or any stories you would like to share in the comment box.

As far as next week goes, I’m taking a personal day on Wednesday, so I believe we will put up blog entries on Thursday and Friday. At least that is the plan for now.

Until then, take care, have a great weekend, and happy reading.

Time seems to be going so fast

Greetings, readers. Here it is another Friday. These weeks and months go by so quickly. Seems like I just got back from camp not that long ago and yet Ryan Seacrest just dropped the ball last week. We went from summer 2014 to New Year’s Eve in one paragraph.

I’ve experienced this phenomenon for many years now. It seems the older I get, the faster time seems to go. I have no idea why that is. When I was in school, I was sometimes teased by kids, which I disliked. Also, I never found school fun, so time dragged. Now I can do basically anything I want and days and weeks fly by. I’m going to be looking up on the internet to see if a scientist has some theory on this.

Tomorrow is back to Dungeons and Dragons gaming day and I’m looking forward to that. Last week’s gaming day was called off for a variety of reasons, so I’ll enjoy getting back in to playing my character Catrana, who is a half-elf ranger, for those of you who know the game. I think I liked my other character Donaar, a dragon-born paladin, just a bit better. I really felt I knew him and his made-up family.

Last night I did a variety of gaming projects, including Madden football and the Sims 3. While doing so, since the games are easy, I thought about when is the perfect time of day to write creatively. Rebecca suggested Mondays and/or Tuesdays, which are days I usually don’t schedule much. I think she is on to something there. Instead of doing my early morning train or airplane simulator I can suck it up and say that on these days I write, and the rest of the week I can continue writing or play games. Anything to break the creative road block. Do I have the 500 page doorstop novel in me? I doubt it. But a few more short story books? Oh, yeah. Absolutely.

Finally, Central Pennsylvania is in the deep freeze. According to the weather site on my computer, tonight’s low could be -1 degrees. Now that is frosty, folks. So bundle up, here’s to a great weekend, and happy reading.

Time got away from me today

Greetings, readers. Something came up in my life that Rebecca and I needed to attend to during working hours, so I have run out of time to do a blog post today. Fortunately this doesn’t happen often.

I am working with Darren tomorrow to see his progress with the novel he is writing out of my play Kimberly, so I will be too busy to do a blog post tomorrow.

Look for the next new blog entry on Friday.

Until then, take care, stay safe, and happy reading.