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To learn or not to learn

Greetings, readers. After many weeks of contemplating whether or not to go back and finish college, I am now leaning towards not. At least not full-time. I know this decision follows my pattern of never finishing anything. But after discussing the topic with my accountant today, we came to the realization that we would probably not make up the $80,000 or $90,000 that it would cost, in the ten years that I would have left to work. Yes, folks, I would be 55 or so by the time I was done. I was all gung-ho for this project a couple of weeks ago, and now once again I am depressed.

An alternative would be to go part-time, taking one or two classes per semester. That would drag it out even longer, but it would be easier on me and with the money. I have three possible majors in mind: Marketing to help me sell the books I already have; Writing to help me write more books; or Psychology in honor of my mother who was a psychologist. The first step will be to see what semester I take the first class in, in August or perhaps in January. The later semester start would give me time to get back from camp, possibly get that job at Panera, and settle in to the new year’s routine. Maybe the job will be enough to make me feel like I am a contributor in life.

Did I really want to finish college? It would have done wonders for my self-esteem and it might have opened up a career or two. Certainly it would have helped me with my writing. I’ve not ruled it in, but I’ve not ruled it out. At age 51, with a brain that sometimes acts like it is in oatmeal, I guess the question is, could I do it? Could I succeed? I guess I wouldn’t know unless I tried, would I? Those who don’t try, don’t get anything in life. Those who do try, sometimes fail, but are usually rewarded.

Besides being a bit bummed out about the whole college idea, I am currently suffering from mild caffeine withdrawals (pardon my yawn). I have had only decaf today and I missed my time at Panera. I’m sure I’ll go over this afternoon, but because of doctor’s orders I am drinking less caffeine and more water. I’m not exactly a happy camper. Not to jinx myself, but at least I don’t have a splitting headache. Though, I do admit that the experiment is working and the physical issues I was having are dramatically reduced.

For those of you who might be interested, my YouTube vlog is up and running. It is called the Joe Kockelmans Show and the only problem about it is that if I sing with music behind me, the video is blocked in 9/10ths of the world. My point on that is this: yes, I understand about copyright law, but I am not trying to sell it, and I am definitely not the Beatles or KISS. No one will confuse me for those bands or any others that I sing with. There must be some way around that snafu. Time will tell.

Until Friday, take care, have a great couple of days, and happy reading.

Happy Friday and camp time approacheth

Greetings, readers. I cannot believe that a week from this evening I will be sitting in a Waterville, Maine motel room, getting ready to move into camp the next morning. I made my reservations for the motels and the rental car. That’s done. Even with my camp list made, I must remain alert so as to not forget something that I want to take. My memory issues have caused problems for me in the past. A few years ago, I forgot Mom’s beloved binoculars.

I have an updated list on my computer and will begin to check things off this afternoon. Since I’m sleeping on my recliner these days, I’ve decided to use my bed for the holding place for the things I will take. Clean clothes, of course, will be packed in the suitcase straight away. I don’t want kitty cat Keekee to sleep on my clean T-shirts; which she would do, if given the opportunity. I know for a fact Keekee will mope the second she sees the suitcase come out. Poor baby always does.

Quickly, here is a review of what I have achieved this past year, personally. I am most proud of two things. I promised myself last September that I would go to bed early and get up early. Rebecca kept it to herself, but I know that I have said that to her the previous years after camp and not followed through. This year I actually achieved that goal and feel healthier for it. Secondly, I promised myself that I was going to clean my apartment and keep it that way. Though I still have a little bit of work to do in a corner of the bedroom, I am no longer calling myself a hoarder. The living room is fairly neat, and the kitchen and bathroom are perfect, thanks to the help of Cathy from my building who helps me every other Sunday.

As for this coming year, I vow to do a lot more writing and reading. I plan to take a library book with me to camp to read in the evenings. That is something I’ve never done before. My biggest project is to have my bedroom perfect by next camp. I know I can do it.

While I’m gone, Rebecca will be doing blog entries from the library and taking care of Keekee. Her health and love to kitty cat is greatly appreciated. Also, Rebecca will handle the Wednesday meeting to give my mail to my accountant in case any important bills come in.

So, until after I return from Bear Spring Camps, enjoy Rebecca’s entries, take care and happy reading.

Week off yielded good results

Greetings, readers. Yes, Rebecca and I are back at it after a week off. I felt I needed it to get some personal things in order. Overall, I would say that the week off was a success. I took the figurative bulldozer to my bedroom and struck bed. I must admit that after three years of sleeping in a recliner, climbing into a comfy clean bed felt good. Now, I know that I am doing things that an early teenager should be doing. Well, guess what, I started my training late.

Rebecca told me this, and she is correct, that having specific goals is the key. To say that I am going to clean my room at some point is all well and good, but to say I’m going to have my place presentable for company around Christmas time is a stronger goal with more motivation. I must always remember, however, with my health ailments, I can only do it a little at a time. I must choose my battles.

Since returning from camp the second week of August, I have successfully changed my sleeping schedule, made good progress on my apartment, passed my inspection, and have taken steps to deal with my depression. I would give the last three months a B grade for my objectives. Rebecca told me many times that I have said in the past I’m going to do something and it never gets done, or stays done. This time I am happy to report not only am I surprising her, I am also surprising myself.

On a very brief side note, cold weather is here in central Pennsylvania. The storm that came over Alaska and came through the mid-west, is here tonight. Yesterday’s high: a pleasant 61; tonight’s overnight low: a frosty 30. I am glad that I will be inside. Last night, a bus driver told me about something she heard, which I had not heard about yet: a phenomenon called flash freezing, where the temperature can drop 10 to 20 degrees within minutes. I’m not sure about that short amount of time, but perhaps in a half hour. She said that might happen here, but luckily it didn’t. I shall continue to enjoy all the sunny days I can get, even if they are cold, for sunny days with blue sky lifts my feelings of depression.

Okay folks, I’m done babbling. This coming Friday look for a top ten list, and a From Rebecca in the near future. So, until Friday stay warm, be happy, take care and happy reading.