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Still trying to figure out my life

Greetings, readers. I shall try not to bore you with my depression, and actually I’m not even sure it is depression. I am experiencing low energy levels and I am taking more naps than usual. I would consider my diet mediocre at best; more protein might help, as would less junk food. Still not having a job is weighing heavily on my mind. I was hoping to be gainfully employed last August. But that opportunity fell through. As we approach late fall and early winter, it seems all the jobs in town are taken.

It could be the fact that my medications are making me sleepy, or a case of mild depression, but I am now averaging two naps per day. Way too much sleep. Recently I just finished watching over 100 episodes of the new Hawaii Five-O, each episode about 45 minutes long, in a three-week period. Imagine if all those evenings were spent writing creatively. I might have 100 pages. But no, I was entertained, but nothing with my name on it came from it.

As I’ve asked myself before, do I still wish to be a writer? Yes. I do not wish to be a non-writer who wrote three books and a play. If that is all the Lord wanted me to do in the creative writing realm, I wish He would let me know. I’m not sure what else I would be passionate about. I wanted to be an airplane pilot as a child, but health issues put an end to that at age 16. I’m sure one of these days soon, I’ll find a job at one of the local stores. What I should do is get up at 6:00, plant my butt in a chair at 7:00, and write until 9:00. But no, I check Facebook, I check Twitter, I play Train Simulator, and 2014 FIFA World Cup Brazil soccer.

Sometimes when I am depressed I can actually imagine myself in a nursing home, sitting in a chair, watching TV or listening to music. When I used to visit my father at the local nursing home, I could tell how depressed he was. He tried to hide it, but he couldn’t. He was in his 70s when he went in. I fear because of my monetary situation and handicaps that I might have to go to assisted living much earlier.

On a brighter note, the Penn State football team won another game and they are well on their way to a New Year’s Day bowl game. Yay, Coach Franklin and team.

Next week we will be working on Wednesday and taking off Thursday for Thanksgiving. I will put up at least one blog entry and possibly two.

Until tomorrow, take care, have a wonderful day, and happy reading.

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Dreary warm Christmas week

Greetings, readers. I know that the calendar says that it is Christmas week, but today the temperature is 56 degrees and tomorrow it might hit 60. Now, I know that we have global warming and El Nino, but I think 60 degrees is pushing it a bit much. It is also raining all day with grey skies. As much as I hate snow and ice, I do like a white Christmas, for it reminds me of good childhood memories. It was much colder in those days.

My girlfriend and I are going to continue the Christmas Eve lights ride tradition, which we are both looking forward to. The Zipcar rental has already been procured, and even though it might rain, at least it won’t be freezing rain. As of this moment, the light ride is a go. Other holiday traditions which I’m indulging in are the lighting of scented candles, and listening to plenty of Christmas music. Tonight, or tomorrow night, I will watch A Christmas Carol, as I always do, and, if I can find it on YouTube, Rudolph the Red-Nosed Reindeer. I know I had two opportunities to see Rudolph, but they were both shown on Tuesday evenings when I’m not home.

Christmas morning, I’m going to see if there are any parades on, and then Traci and I have a full day of visiting her family. I’m looking forward to that, because I’ve not seen her sister Roni since high school; she was in my graduating class. I can just imagine all the wonderful food and pleasant conversation we’ll have.

The day after Christmas is always a downer for me because it is the beginning of what I call the dead season. Shortly after New Year’s the town’s outside decorations come down, and without leaves on the trees, the whole area looks dormant. Sometimes I suffer from my depression at this time, but I’ve already taken steps with my therapist to help me this winter. I don’t think it is going to stay warm all winter, but every warm winter day is one day closer to spring.

On January 2nd, I’m going to watch the Penn State bowl game. I was a little disappointed by how the team finished the season, but we are going bowling, and that is good for the school.  A few days after that, I think all my Christmas decorations will be taken down and boxed, and the business of the new year will begin.

I bid everybody a happy holiday season. Take care, have a good day, and happy reading.