Still trying to figure out my life

Greetings, readers. I shall try not to bore you with my depression, and actually I’m not even sure it is depression. I am experiencing low energy levels and I am taking more naps than usual. I would consider my diet mediocre at best; more protein might help, as would less junk food. Still not having a job is weighing heavily on my mind. I was hoping to be gainfully employed last August. But that opportunity fell through. As we approach late fall and early winter, it seems all the jobs in town are taken.

It could be the fact that my medications are making me sleepy, or a case of mild depression, but I am now averaging two naps per day. Way too much sleep. Recently I just finished watching over 100 episodes of the new Hawaii Five-O, each episode about 45 minutes long, in a three-week period. Imagine if all those evenings were spent writing creatively. I might have 100 pages. But no, I was entertained, but nothing with my name on it came from it.

As I’ve asked myself before, do I still wish to be a writer? Yes. I do not wish to be a non-writer who wrote three books and a play. If that is all the Lord wanted me to do in the creative writing realm, I wish He would let me know. I’m not sure what else I would be passionate about. I wanted to be an airplane pilot as a child, but health issues put an end to that at age 16. I’m sure one of these days soon, I’ll find a job at one of the local stores. What I should do is get up at 6:00, plant my butt in a chair at 7:00, and write until 9:00. But no, I check Facebook, I check Twitter, I play Train Simulator, and 2014 FIFA World Cup Brazil soccer.

Sometimes when I am depressed I can actually imagine myself in a nursing home, sitting in a chair, watching TV or listening to music. When I used to visit my father at the local nursing home, I could tell how depressed he was. He tried to hide it, but he couldn’t. He was in his 70s when he went in. I fear because of my monetary situation and handicaps that I might have to go to assisted living much earlier.

On a brighter note, the Penn State football team won another game and they are well on their way to a New Year’s Day bowl game. Yay, Coach Franklin and team.

Next week we will be working on Wednesday and taking off Thursday for Thanksgiving. I will put up at least one blog entry and possibly two.

Until tomorrow, take care, have a wonderful day, and happy reading.


2 thoughts on “Still trying to figure out my life

  1. Hi Joe,

    I think I read that part of your job quest is to get out and increase your social circles. But in the meantime, if things in the local market look tight, would you consider doing some grant writing by telecommute? I’m one of your dad’s former students and I now work 3/4 time in grant writing (teaching on the side). If you’re interested, check out some options at I would be happy to look at your resume so that your writing experience translates. I think if you got some projects like this under your belt, you could find a job at a State College-area nonprofit doing this work. For instance, look at this one:


    Job (Philadelphia): Part-Time Grant Writer The Philadelphia Unemployment Project is looking for a part time grant writer to help with proposals and other fund raising efforts.



    1. Hi, J.C. Thank you so much for your thoughtful suggestion. I do not have any experience with academic writing or grant writing. I wish I had followed in my father’s footsteps and been a philosopher, but my books pertain to my experiences at a wonderful vacation spot in Maine, and the first year of my blog entries. I do not think I am qualified for this position, but again I thank you for the idea and links.
      Thanks also for being a reader. Take care and have a great day. -Joe-


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