Pride goeth before a fall

Greetings, readers. What a beautiful day it is in State College. I’m enjoying the sunshine and was out and about early, before a 10:30 meeting. It was with a social worker who is extremely caring and took plenty of time to answer all of my questions. It must be made plain right now, I am a proud man. But as I said in my play Kimberly, the time to be proud is over. I need help.

I’m dealing with quite a few things that have been snowballing over the last few years. The two biggest are my monetary status change and the recent loss of family members. Having lost my Godmother last month, I am now on my own in State College, except for good friends. My family is with the angels.

For years I tried to help myself, deluded into thinking things will turn out okay. I ignored most of my problems by watching Netflix or playing PS3 games. After talking with Jan, I’ve set some goals for the next few months and will be taking the appropriate steps to meet those goals. I’m not afraid to ask for help anymore. As a matter of fact, I might go overboard the other way for a while. I am certain though, as I get more confident, I will be able to do the things I need to do and ask for help when I need it. Being proud at this time, for me anyway, is silly.

Two major changes in my daily routine will affect my mental status right away. As of tomorrow, I shall be waking up early and having coffee at home. The other major change will be doing my writing from approximately 8 or 9 until almost noon. Rebecca’s husband has told me that even if you write crap every day, go ahead and write everyday. I am going to heed that advice.

Now that I am open to assistance and suggestions, please feel free to drop a reply if you have any helpful tips about depression or general well-being. This ends this rare Thursday blog entry. Take care and happy reading.

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8 thoughts on “Pride goeth before a fall

  1. Routine is one of the biggest things to focus on. Even if you don’t feel like doing something, if you have a steady yet flexible routine you will find yourself doing these things anyway. For example, I dislike exercise, so I try and do it an hour after dinner. I write difficult stuff during that hour, so I’m glad to leave it and get out for a walk.
    Of course, now that Daylight Saving has started, I’m going to need to find a new time for my walk…But you get the idea 🙂
    Good luck!

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    1. Hi. Sorry it took so long to get back to you. Thanks so much for your advice. I find it completely sound and I am trying to follow it. Some days it is harder than others. 🙂

      Take care. -Joe-

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  2. Hi Joseph,

    So sorry to hear about your godmother. I dread the day my 90-something mom passes away because it will truly be the end of an era – and I’ll have to work harder to reorganize my sense of community.
    Do you have a writing group, or even a book group, in addition to Rebecca and her husband? If not, I wonder whether you could start one at a local bookstore or library. After much looking and a few groups that didn’t last, I found my current group through attending the Mendocino Coast Writers Conference. Whenever I lose momentum – either in writing or in life – our once-a-month meetings get me back on track. (We’d meet more frequently except that we all live in different corners of the Bay Area; we each travel about an hour to our meeting spot at a restaurant in Benicia that lets us “occupy” a table for several hours.)

    About conferences, some are pricey but others aren’t too bad and worth saving up for. Here are a few links that might give you more community in Pennsylvania.

    http://writing.shawguides.com/Tag/Pennsylvania

    https://www.creativenonfiction.org/products/creative-nonfiction-writers-conference-three-day

    http://clarion.ucsd.edu/about.html

    http://www.carnegielibrary.org/research/literature/pittsburgh/orgs.html

    My former writing teacher, Richard Dillard, at Hollins in Roanoke, used to say, at the end of every workshop, “Well, keep going!” Probably the best writing/life advice I’ve ever received. Keep on blogging! I love the posts. Oh, and the mom dream? Pretty sure that’s a message to you from yourself about what you DON’T want – you’re ready to meet someone new, maybe even someone your mom wouldn’t approve of, you’re not ready for a hearse and you don’t want to return to Pittsburgh (and only a Penn State fan would probably equate death with Pitt).

    Joy

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    1. Dear Joy,
      It was so good to hear from you. I appreciate your comments. I have a meeting this afternoon to which I must run. Look for a longer reply from me tomorrow.
      Thank you so much.
      -Joe-

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    2. Dear Joy,

      Thank you for your kind words. Yes, it has been a bit of a struggle getting over Godmother’s passing. I still think about my parents a lot, even after quite a number of years. Also, thanks for the links. I am going to check those out later this afternoon. I have a friend who owns a used bookstore nearby and I’m sure that some kind of group to which you referred must exist. Thanks for the good advice.

      Lastly, you will be happy to know that I have no plans for closing down the blog. 🙂

      Do take care, and I hope you continue to enjoy the blog. Have a great day. -Joe-

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  3. Hi again, I must say I like the advice to ‘write anyway’. I think writing is the worst and best thing in the world – when I’m in the mood there’s nothing I’d rather do, but when I don’t feel like it…bring on the Valium. Good luck to us al!

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    1. Hello there,
      I completely understand your comment and agree with it. The only writing I seem to be doing right now are blog entries. Most of my other creativity seems to be mental or written notes on barely started projects. A paranormal novel, which I admit is in its infancy, shows a lot of promise. I’ll be getting back to work on that later this afternoon.
      Take care, and please do keep on commenting. -Joe-

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